Of Journeys...

...the hazy path is littered with broken hearts from forgotten tales of long ago, lain strewn on the path which many tortured souls have previously passed. Elapse tales of successes and failures is borne by the soul as its attempts to fulfill the chosen destiny as it naturally seeks to satisfy its innermost desires. Through this broken unrelenting maze, the journey seem naught bright and rosy, but a dark and forbidden undertaking, with no promise of success or failure in the end. For it is a journey, for which all souls must undertake one day, in order to achieve a higher sense of worth, and peace from within. It is the journey of all souls lost in the in the intricate maze of what is known as life. The paradox of life is such, and for the soul to carry on further into the dark unknown, there is but one flicker of hope, self perseverance, the ability to not give up when the cards are down, the ability to stand tall when all hope seems lost and when the promise of the next rays of sunshine may never appear on the horizon. It is through this unknowns and uncertainty, may the value of experiences be appreciated and fulfilled. It is also through this searching, the soul seeks to find its own redemption and self worth as it continues on this never-ending journey into the dark and forbidden unknown…

Of the Fire Within...

Fire Within

Look deep into my eyes, what do you see?
Deep within its shadowy depths, a fire still burns,
The fire was nearly extinguished, that part of me,
Dying flame may it be now, but it is still alive,
As it always shall be, as it always will be.

The fire within grows stronger, day by day,
As the seasons pass, so shall the hurt,
As the moons change, so shall the past,
The fire within grows, fueled by the determination,
To search for something that will finally last.

The future is bright, it is forgiving, and it is so rich,
Unknown may it be, rough may my journey be,
I will continue on this journey, fueled by my fire,
To places and experiences which I so still long,
To taste the beauty of life, to taste life’s fire.

There is so much to do, so much to see,
Love, joys, sadness’s, losses, achievements,
All of these, I will experience, for these are the keys,
All of these I will savior, each single one emotion,
So that one day, I may leave this world truly in peace.

Help me; show me the moon, for I will show you the sun,
Show me what is love, for I will show you what care is,
Show me undying loyalty, for I will show you lasting faithfulness,
Show and teach me who am I, and I will show and teach you who you are,
Help me, fuel this fire within, for it is you, who will bask in its warmness.

This fire within will never die, it shall always live,
It just needs help, it needs your care, it needs a bit of love,
To fuel it back to the raging fire it once was, glowing brightly,
So that it may light your darkest hours, your weakest days,
You have the key, the fuel to do this, of this I know lately.

Look deep into my eyes, do you see now?
Do you see your part? What you must do?
Help me as I will help you; fuel my fire as yours I fuel,
Together, our fire will be unstoppable, invincible,
Together, we shall overcome, all of this life’s duel.

-EK-

Of family departed...

This has been sad fortnight for me. My grandmother passed away. She was 82 and she lived to bring up 7 children and see 11 grandchildren grow up altogether. She has been sick for quite some time now and last Saturday, after being unconscious for about a week, she slipped away from us. As I think back about the experiences and sights she would have seen throughout her lifetime, the British occupation, the Japanese occupation, the May 13th incident, putting 7 children through university, the birth of her grandchildren, the dead of her husband and zillions more, I see that she has accomplished her missions in life. She died peacefully as an accomplished person. Although I never spoke much to her in her later years, I would like her to know this:

“Take care grandmother. If not for you, we would not be here and we thank you (all the 11 of your grandchildren) for the effort and tireless commitment you gave to your children and to us, the grandchildren. Now we will take it from where you left off to further keep this family together as how you did for decades and to grow together. I take it onto myself as the oldest grandson to be personally responsible in ensuring the growth of my 10 other brothers and sisters so that we may one day accomplish what you have in the years to come. May the LORD bless your for all your kindness and forgive you for your sins and take you under his wing to a place where your soul may finally rest in peace on a bed of roses”.

I would like to end this entry with a prayer for her departed soul.

Nunc Dimittis
Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord, Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears attend to the voice of my supplication.If you, O Lord, should mark our guilt, Lord, who could survive?
But there is forgiveness in you, and we revere you for it.

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watch-men for the morning.

O Israel, hope in the Lord! For with the Lord there is steadfast love, and with Him is plenteous redemption. And He will redeem Israel from all iniquities.

Eternal rest grant unto my grandmother, O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon her.

May she rest in peace. Amen.

O Lord, hear my prayer. And let my cry come to you.O God, creator and redeemer of all the faithful, grant to the souls of your departed servants the forgiveness of all their sins.

Through my prayer, may she obtain the pardon she has always desired.

Amen

-Psalm 130 (129)-

May she rest in peace with the LORD. Amen